WILD BERRIES - A poem by Alice Eloise Stor'i

Here is a poem written by my mother in 2001 for me in celebration of my birthday.  The image behind the poem was drawn by my sister, Karla, also in celebration of my birthday.  

Karen and I were living in Southern California at the time.  My mother was living in Oregon.  In trying to understand the meaning of the poem, my Aunt Lora Lee said "It means your mother misses you.  A lot."

I post this poem today in honor of my mother on her birthday, December 20th.  She would be 88 today if she were alive.  

Happy Birthday Mom.

How It Feels - A Poem by Alice Stori

HOW IT FEELS

Twisted.  A sweater wrung
  in a towel to dry.  Gnarled.
A tree trunk where leprechauns
  might hide a pot of gold.  Contorted
  around its center like a Chinese acrobat.
Convoluted, wound up, bent: my tongue
  when speaking from my heart.

Alice Stori

Circa, late 1990s

aka Alice E. Storaasli

b. December 20, 1935 - d. January 7, 2004

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This poem was written by my mother, Alice Storaasli, during the late 1990s.  She won a contest for it, and banner-sized versions of it were displayed for a month in city buses around Portland, Oregon.

If you knew my mother, you would recognize just how much this poem explains and describes her way of showing emotion.

Happy Birthday Mom - Wish you were here to celebrate it.

"My Father's Garden" by David Wagoner - 1987

On his way to the open hearth where white-hot steel
Boiled against furnace walls in wait for his lance
To pierce the fireclay and set loose demons
And dragons in molten tons, blazing
Down to the huge satanic caldrons,
Each day he would pass the scrapyard, his kind of garden.

In rusty rockeries of stoves and brake drums,
In grottoes of sewing machings and refrigerators,
He would pick flowers for us: small gears and cogwheels
With teeth like petals, with holes for anthers,
Long stalks of lead to be poured into toy soldiers,
Ball bearings as big as grapes to knock them down.

He was called a melter.  He tried to keep his brain
From melting in those tyger-mouthed mills
Where the same steel reappeared over and over
To be reborn in the fire as something better
Or worse: cannons or cars, needles or girders,
Flagpoles, swords, or plowshares.

But it melted.  His classical learning ran
Down and away from him, not burning bright.
His fingers culled a few cold scraps of Latin
And Greek, magna sine laude,* for crosswords
And brought home lumps of tin and sewer grills
As if they were his ripe prize vegetables.

* Without great distinction; a reversal of the usual magna cum laude

"Marks" by Linda Pastan - 1978

My husband gives me an A
for last night's supper,
an incomplete for my ironing,
a B plus in bed.
My son says I am average,
an average mother, but if
I put my mind to it
I could improve.
My daughter believes
in Pass/Fail and tells me
I pass.  Wait 'til they learn
I'm dropping out.

"Talk" by Roo Borson - 1981

The shops, the streets are full of old men
who can't think of a thing to say anymore.
Sometimes, looking at a girl, it
almost occurs to them, but they can't make it out,
they go pawing toward it through the fog.

The young men are still jostling shoulders
as they walk along, tussling at one another with words.
They're excited by talk, they can still see the danger.

The old women, thrifty with words,
haggling for oranges, their mouths
take bites out of the air.  They know the value of oranges.
They had to learn everything
on their own.

The young women are the worst off, no one has bothered
to show them things.
You can see their minds on their faces,
they are like little lakes before a storm.
They don't know it's a confusion that makes them sad.
It's lucky in a way though, because the young men take
a look of confusion for inscrutability, and this
excites them and makes them want to own
this face they don't understand,
something to be tinkered with at their leisure.